Have you figured out the Past to the future?

Hi Hi

I got this sick feeling in my stomach. I don't know what it is. I have work tonight and I have to ron my clothes. >_> It's 1103. I want to go back to sleep, but can't. Gonna miss my show tonight ~_~. Anyways I took a practice testy and scored 260 out of 1,000. LAME!. I gotta study up and then I go for another practice test. I wish i could like insert some knowledge in my head xD. Alot of people are trying to convince me to not go, and stuff like that. Or they tell me stuff I know I don't wanna do but at the same time it only makes me wanna go more lol. I just realized I'm gonna have to learn how to put a gun together ~_~. That is one thing I have to admit I don't want to do lol. But gonna have to learn how to thou. I gave my anime profile away lol. I have no time to play and edit anymore. I mean I'd love to but no time. I'll just keep it aas a hobby but I still need to find that camera. Alright let me go finish ironing the clothes. xD It's 1109



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

The day before tomorrow but the day after yesterday's yesterday.

Hi hi

I know I was suppose to write yesterday but I forgot ~_~. I need to stop that. Anyways I went to a recuit center for the navy and I have a phsyical test. xD My step mom doesn't know but my dad isn't as happy as before I guess he thought it was a moment and that it'dc fade away but when I told him....Dear me...xD. Anyways he wants to know what I get on the test. Yes yes I want to go to the navy. I need to for personal reasons and other reason. My dad is doing a great job but I feel I need more hardcore training, for both mental, phsyical, and attitude wise... and personality too. At the same time I get this traiing I can work and get schoooling money and get regular paying money aswell as get trained for the feild I wanna go in. Once I finish my 4 years...I can transfere those creidts to a college and finish whats needed and done. It's not an easy way out but It's getting me where I need to start going. I know i'm against war...but I need to do this. I've always for some reason also wanted to join the navy anyways. I can't really tell you why, I guess maybe that reason my mother wanted to but didn't. I been working out, today I don't hurt, yesterday o dear God lol. I gotta go it's time for me to get in the shower I'm all sweaty. xD

I'll post Graduation pictures if I do make it in to boot camp and pass xD



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Both In and Out we have war....

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One word...NAVY...i'll write tomorro and explain.




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

He killed a thousand men with one word.

Hi Hi

Ok that hi hi stuff is starting to get a little lame xD. I was watching an awesome drama last night (faints), it's called Coffe Prince. Coffe Prince is a little like Hanakumi, only doesn't take place in a high school lol. Today I believe I'm gonna be almost late for work xD. I'm on my lady stuff ~_~ I don't feel like going to work, WHY WON'T MY PHONE STOP VIBRATING!!!!!!. -__- stupid phone. Ok Now like i was saying...my stomuch hurts T_______T, need food and medical items. xD




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Backwards is Forwards While Forwards is Insanity

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Today I thought I wasn't gonna beable to make it to work but then remember my titles and said wow. If I called out I'd get what's called AWALLED ... Awalled is maked absent without leave. That's the gov't for you. O well atleast I feel ok. Just wait till i get to work lol. I don't feel like goin but I need the money, i need to save more for school and stuff. I also need to finish learning to drive (sigh). I'm actually a little excited this time. I feel better about it. Anyways, I know i haven't writen for 3 days and this is a short entry but I need to go eat before I am in pain. BTW DID YOU SEE THE SPEECH OBAMA GAVE? I'll post it for you.





State your opinion on the speech.




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

This Is Our Second and Last Chance

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Again I do an entry late, I need to stop. I've decided to step up my game. I need to do more important things for myself asap, Aswell as get back to the active creative side of me. My laptop can't read cd's anymore, I'm not sure what's wrong with it.I need a note book badly, so I can start planning out my website and other things I need to do. But where on the way to work will I find a notebook...O yea lol I forgot the store right acroos the street. I'll just have to leave a bit early to go there or rite aid. I prefer Rite-aid, but that's off so I'm just gonna have to do with the on acroos the street from where I walk to the bus. I also just came to thought I need to fix a&tc edits up. Alot todo. Then I need to finish the stor for The Geminis so I can maybe get it edited, published and hopefully maybe have someone do the anime drawings for it. I can't reall do that kinda of thing. I can't do manga type drawings, just still one shot lol. Hopeully I find someone. After that I need to find my dad's camera and etc etc. So much to do so little time and money.





Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Our country Eats men...

Hi Hi

Wow, last post was on the 9th lol. Well i'm about to go play nfs. Today I got a flower (embaressed). It was nice of him but wasn't nessessary lol. OMG THE MOVIE HULK IS COMING OUT SOON. >_> I wanna see that one. Have I ever said how i wanted a dragon tatoo on my back. Like a monster dragon with thos japanese fish going around it, and some cherry blossoms. I want my japanese name written next to it then the claw on my shoulder, but I want like the eyes all blackened to symboylize darkness and lost of path. OMG I CAN'T WAIT TO GET IT. it's gonna be sick >XD ok time for me to go play my game.

Enjoy Travis Barker Playing to Flo Rider






Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

If you can't handle my sunshine then get out of the sunlight

Hi Hi


Hmm....Dunno what ot write as I only have 6 minutes to write. Depression?....I'll continue this later, I need to go.


Hi Hi

I know it looks a bit weird that it says hi hi twice but I did say I was gonna continue this one, even thou I'm cheating and today is the 10th lol. I don't know what to talk about really. Nothing has really happened.I decide to try and build my own pc thou. A MEGA SUPER AWESOME POWERFUL COMPUTERZOID xD. I'm stupid some time lol. I gotta do the research for the parts I want thou. Then I gotta find that camera of my fathers and learn how to use it. Then I got other stuff I gotta learn how to use. So much to do so little time. Gonna have to start planning asap.

Time to feed dog >XD yes




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Her speed was so slow, I had to ask for forgiveness

Hi hi...


I don't know where to start or how to start. Thought this would be a good blog, but I realized I rush to much. Patients is blist but painful. I don't want to be patient, however i need to learn how to be like i use to be. -sigh-. whatelse should I say? Right anyways, so i'm so suppose to be going on a date but I've only known him for now..2 weeks...And my step mom pointed out we only known eachother for a short time, we should get to know eachother more. Point is fully taken thou...Can only keep it at that. TT_____TT. Sound good thou, just not too fun. We'll see what happens. In all good time, right? RIGHT! YOSH! oK i HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY....he's listening *looks around like a spy* >_> <------------------weirdo!



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

This is a Story so follow along with me.

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I bet it's stupid that I say hi hi at the beginning of every entry I do and I bet it's stupid I put up titles that have nothign to do with the entry however, each title is a quote of mine. It's to make you think, it's to make you smile, it's to piss you off, it's there because I thought of it. Some don't make since some do. Today's titles thou has something to do with my whole journal thou, this is a story of my life and you know you gotta follow along with me. You don't know me but you are learning as am I. I still like religon wise don't know who I am, and many other ways I don't know who I am lol. But that's ok I'm learning lol. Anyways...."SHAWTY IS A 10" I had to say that, Derrick (The third ) is still on my mind right now. Even thou I KNOW we're only SUPPOSE to be friends -_-....HE STARTED IT....TT_____TT Why am I so weak to getting biten on the neck....wish I could tell you the whole story but can't I must go shower xD. YAY I got myself out of that one lol. Ok bye >_>




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Tears of A Mistress

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Ok, I have really nothing to talk about except I met this cute guy who is UNAVAIBLE!!!. Why is every guy I happen to like somehow unavaible to my access lol (had to use the word access, sounds better). Then all the ugly guys are open -_-. Ugh just not cool you know. The first one is to odl for me, the next one I don't even know what's wrong, then one after that is working things in his life out....-______- Atleast I can remain friends with them. Lol then I can tease how all my friends are hot stuff lol >XD I like that, if I can't have them one way, I'm gonna have'em another lol. Anyways...My ponytail i got put in is falling >_< and it's getting ichy. My mom texted me last night when I fell asleep, lol she left a message calling me like my baby sister calls me lol. I love my mom lol. Ok I need food and I have nothing else to really talk about lol. >_> O the third....I don't know if you all are getting these names so I'll explain them



The first (Who's-name-not-to-be-mentioned)
The second (The one I ride the bus with from and to work)
The third (The one I just recently met that's unavaible)


Ok anyways, the the thrid is sweet ^___^, <_< I was texting him from the time I left work to when I went to bed ._. . I bet you for a fact I'm gonna be low on minutes because I have prepaid at the moment, i haven't upgraded yet, so I can garantee I am a little low lol. o YEA and the third is cute. Dunno if I said that already lol Ok time for me to go eat lol.



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Tetafaye

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It makes no sence to me to be posting but for some guilty reason I am. I found out who's-name-not-to-be-mentioned age.....-_- he's too old for me. Well I mean had it been me on my own I wouldn't care because I like him for him, not his age but point be taken he IS too old for me at the point now and today. Sooooooo we can only be friends -_-. Anyways I know where I want to have my birthday party I don't know if I have said that already xD. I'll say it again DIVA'S unless I see another place better, I've got time, If God Wills me to have times. You something I never take about my religon or what religon I am, and one day I will with a special editon post. Special editon post sound nice so I called it that. lol. Anyways I really don't know what to talk about so I'm gonna go eat lol



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Can in a Corn

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I have began to notice my post, almost a every 3 days pattern. I realize I can't write everyday it's boring lol. Anyways I need to update you. On Wednsday night I went to diva's, it was nice, I had two drinks...Still don't know wha my second drink was but it was good lol. I believe the first one was gin and coke, I BELIEVE. I got to dance and stuff, but I'm still mad at myself I didn't get to take a picture of who's-name-will-not-be-mentioned. YES YES, I have realized I still like him -__-, not like i stop or anything, think my mind was like...get a grip woman lol. Anyways I got my hair done AND...(DRUM ROLL) I don't like it. I hate in fact and yes hate is a strong word but I can't stand the style it's in. The bump is way to big, I get fusterated just looking at it lol. Back to what happened at diva's ... I GOT TO LAY MY BIG HEAD ON HIS SHOULDER AND HE LAID HIS HEAD ON MY BIG HEAD (GETS EXCITED). Yes I'm more dork than you think I am xD lol.Atleast I had that moment (swoons). I wanted to dance but with me If i start dancing you just gotta jump in, i can't start just get up on you and dance...I get all shy and stuff. -__- I need some help with this shy stuff. I COULD HAVE TALKED TO HIM AND EVERYTHING. I cant stand myself right now. DISAPPOINTMENT. My step-mom was laughing when I told her lol.I laugh at the thought of it too lol It is pretty dorky. Have you heard about the race with the to-be presidents. The amount of money these people are spending in ads is ridiculous. Really if you wanted to show you can do it, put it towards something else because anyone anywhere can make an ad, promise or say would you rather yadda ya. It's the same consept (excuse my spelling) as cell phone ads, cable ads, so on so forth, they promise you this, and you get that. Now the prisident we have now I'm sure did the same type of ad... and what did we get. Can we really trust what they say they are going to do, because it seems to me like everytime they say they can this they can that they never this or that they loose their heads.We all know well at the beginning they mean well they want to help, but we also know once they get up there, most or the decision are not theirs to make, they must be agreed on. My point is, from what I noticed when I watch CNN, is that they make these promises that not them , us or anyone is sure that can keep or go by. Don't make promises you can't keeps. I'm not into politics much but this is just things I've come to notice. Anyways I probably wrong lol, if I am please correct me, because at this time today and now, I couldn't tell you who'd I'd vote for, .... might just vote for myself lol.
Time to give this an end lol Gotta go eat breakfast. Ciao


((War. It is ugly while it is beautiful, A beast who is...disgustingly cruel, take lives amoung lives. Steal the fruit of the mother and bareing it's crime on the city much like a pleage. While then it's beauty, how it is done. Frogive but I maybe against war, however I still see it's beauty. How it is conducted, how it can be graceful and swift at times or others it can be...memorble. We come to look only as what it does not how it does it. The disgusted is what, the beauty is how. Should we come to still hate it, and come to just dislike it. I'd tell you I still hate it, it's charmingg beauty doesn't give way to the chaos, darkness and glit it lays upon.))(excuse spelling).




Henduo Henduo Ai
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