Bushes out of Berry, Bloody damn man where's my pants?!

Hello hi etc etc lol

I was suppose post an entry sooner but as we all know I didnt. Nothing really happened since last time I've posted. I took a DMV prep test and got a 68 or somethign like that....I need to get atleast 80 lol. I gotta read that book again, which should only take me a month, if I dont get lazy. I finally opened my Facebook. Added already 12 people lol. O dear o my lol. I don't know if I should delete my myspace...I guess I can keep it don't really talk to anyone on it. eh. Xmas was ok for me, I worked, can't remember if work was busy or not. I was given a purse and some other cute little things. I would have like a car with a hot guy lmao. But now that's just over board so yea I wont be getting that lol.. I don't know what I'm gonna do on new years eve and day. I know I'll be working is for sure. I haven't edited any pictures lately nor taken any pictures, thanks to the cold it keeps me in lol. Can never seem to find the pictures I wanna edit or that either fits in my edits. Just like the other day, I thought I had a certain picture and sure enough didn't have it. It's cool thou I think I made somthing else, cant remember. Winter this year is extra weird, first it came late then it warmed up as far as 66 degrees. Thats just weird for me. Then I have a feeling its not gonna snow again, hopefully it doesn't because I don't wanna have to shovel snow nor walk in it. All I want to do when it snows is either go to a cafe or moives with friends or sleep, thats about it. lol. In speaking of moives I saw Spirit the other day...........LAME!!!! Just aweful! Can't believe that moive, the commercials were all hyped up and full of steroids. Hopefully Gran Tarino isn't like that, which I doubt because Clint Eastwood is in it so most likely it's gonna be a real good one. There was another one that was coming out after G.T I can't remember the name of it....Aw Shit. Bet it'll come to mind later lol.

It's time for me to hit the hay. I shall post again soon.

XOXO
T.Willie~


P.S. The FACEBOOK! THE BOOK FOR THE FACE!!!!!! (random)

"Mum, Why are we falling? Is it because our King failed us yet again?"

Hello hi!


I know its been a very long while I havent posted, I dont know what thou I havent posted but Im gonna get back to doing it. What has happened since I was gone? Well lets take a look.....
The economy has fallen.
The first "black" man was made President of United States (My homeland).
It snowed in the State of New Jersey.
Troops in Iraq died. (May their Souls Rest In Peace).
Ive given up on a girl I liked (still kinda like her but its fading).
Figured out just about what I want to do in life.
Argued with a good friend.
Did some good deeds.
Reunited with an old military friend.
Met new people.
Did some xmas shopping (not all of it)
And a few other things.

Thats just about it. Although I could have done more things, but I didnt. I need to start exercesing and get into shape. I cant really write much right now because Im on my phone and this can be erased at anytime. For now thats a brief idea of whats happened. I will update.

Much Love
T.Willie

Circles Of Squares

Life goes on by Leanne Rimes is a pretty strong song; I’m currently listening to the song and watching the BRAVE Party for the veterans that came back. I signed the petition tonight. They deserve to be taken care of. I’m pretty pissed off about how they (government) have been treating the people that have the courage to go out and risk their lives for them. It is like they tell them go do this and we’ll reward and pay you but then when they come back, it’s pretty much “ok we paid you, you’re home thanks”. The government seems to act like the people in the military owe them something, THEY DON’T! The government owes them, they went out there to protect them and they didn’t even finish their end of the bargain. They didn’t give them a home, didn’t make sure they are ok, and didn’t give them a way to earn money after finishing surviving. Our government is honestly an embarrassment. I strongly support the troops (meaning all the military personal that are over there fighting), they have a strength that none of even can imagine. I really hope whom ever is going to be in office better do a damn good job and not make the same or similar mistake as monkey face bush, I don’t care about insulting him because frankly he deserves it. This war needs to be ended and our troops need to be brought back to their families. I’m really just upset and ranting about these things. I pray the next president does the right thing because we honestly don’t need a another procrastinator or hypocrite in office, trust me on this one if the next one misses up like the one before the people will defiantly take the liberty of putting him out themselves… I had this question, I noticed politicians always talk about PAST experiences. Now before I ask about this I’m going to say this, when you do something you learn from it. You pick up a hot pot you learn use a towel next time. Now the question is…. If they have SOOOO many past experiences why is it the same mistakes are being made? Someone help me out here cause I’m not getting this…. I’m tired and hungry and I have work tomorrow… I'd like to say workings for Homeland Security isn’t that easy and I can somewhat understand what the troops feel but I think it’s far from it. In speaking of that… I want to pull up the subject of how people think Of…TSA so lowly. People come in the airport complaining that all TSA is there to do is take people’s water or lotion. Everyone needs to realize something, everyday we go in a bag we are in risk of dying, everyday we go to work we’re in risk of dying. But how is that? The second contact with that bag after it’s owner is TSA, if it’s a bomb and we go in it what happens? A TSA officer will die most likely. TSA is not there to annoy people, not there to just provide people with a job, if anyone forgot TSA started because this … excuse me OUR COUNTRY was attacked and unlike some people we don’t want that to happen again. It seems the only people that understand this best is the people that were affected such as the firefighters, survivors, troops, and family members of those whom were lost. It’s a pitiful shame, honestly. Ok that’s enough ranting I need to go to sleep, I have to go to work to HELP protect some ungrateful people. I'll be ranting again soon lol.

Very very much Love
T. Willie. (aka Y.K the Apple)

Lost and Not To Be Found

Konichiwa.....

Ok Im getting sick of saying konichiwa, I've gotta think of something else to say like. Sup or Hello and hey...Or maybe just start the damn post. Yea thats what Ill do. Lets just get to the point...THE POST lol.

Oddly enough I was using the bathroom today and I sat there thinking how I procrastinate about serious stuff I wanted to do and how my mood changes about my future. I was sitting there (not using it just sitting) and said to myself "I need to realize if I really want a dream like this to come true I've got to get out there and do". Takes me this long to finally think that???? Yea pretty much. So this time, I'm gonna push myself, stop procrastinating and being lazy and just do, in order for me to put the world in a coma I've got to get off my ass and actually but them in that headlock. Right? right! I'll start off with looking for scholorship and etc, which I know the one I would like to get but I have to take my SATs first...gotta get info on that too. Alot of work but I got to start doing it.

My break is abt to be up so I gotta end this short but that was just one thing I had on my mind that I just had to share.O and this time I'm not using my pop art name...I'll be using the name I am.

Much Much Love
Tatiana (aka Yamamoto Kenji)

Funny Funny Funnnnnnny! Not really...Newmen.....

Konichiwa.

I found a funny video of a Marine dancing so I figured I share at the sametime I figured Id also share how the Navy has changed the uniforms to brown and black from the classic and heroic whites and navy blues.... I'm pissed.....

Enjoy (click to play sorry im not home to make it automatically play)


Henduo henduo ai
Y.K. THE PINK APPLE

Souls in a Can Part II

Konichiwa


Yea so like I was saying, I have my hand around its neck but Im not willing to let go of this dream. I talked to my father and he just told me to work on the now. I like to work on the now next and after next lol, which I bet is the reason I cant get somethings done so Im gonna do that work on the now.

I've decided about my website, the home page will be on myspace I just noticed I told myself why the hell would make a website when I could just spruse my myspace page up to look like a website with the connecting pages. Makes sense to me. Im gonna try to make it to night while Im looking at Stevens college. It looks nice. I think I wanna go after I finish looking at the information and decide.

I have to upload some pictures of my dog, he's the cutiest little thing. He keeps bothering me for chocolate lol. This dog is crazy for chocolate covered raisins lol. Cant give him too much thou.

Well I didnt see the debate for either Presidential or Vicential lol. BUT! I saw the reveiws on the presidentials, Mc Cain was foul and rude, I thought it was rude he showed no respect to Obama by not looking at him, that in my opinion made him look bad, and the fact he didnt just answer the questions asked terrible. Continuously refering about past experiance, no one wants to hear about all that, we've heard it before just tell us how your gonna fix the problem. Obama did ok, he was answering the questions but I think on his part he was staring at Mc Cain, that might have been the reason Mc Cain didn't look at him lol. Idk I'm not too sure about politics infact as one would see Im a newbie learning about it all. Unfortunatly I wont be able to vote due to personal problems lol. Nothing bad, hopefully next time I can vote.

Alright now I gotta go get to work on this website.

Henduo Henduo Ai
Y.K. The Pink Apple


P.S. The website will be located here (myspace.com/enbpinkapple)

Souls In A Can

Konichiwa

Today I was thinking about my dream. I have my hands around its neck and not willing to let it go. IDK. I think I still really want to go however I still have the part I wanna open up a resterant and Cafe. Idk. There is so much I wanna do but I gotta take my time which I dont like. Life is time I guess. I think its the fact Ill be older when I get the chance to do the resterant after coming back from the navy but then there is the fact I wanna go far in the navy. I gotta choose but I dont know what to choose. Anyways I cant vote becoz of many important personal reasons Id love to tell you but cant. lol. I cant write much right now becoz Im at work... TO BE CONTINUED LOL



Henduo Henduo Ai
Y.K. The Pink Apple

We have no more souls

Konichiwa


Its been forever since I last posted a entry lol well besides the one i did a couple of days ago. Alot of things ofcourse have been happening, good and bad. First of most the something bad, I had fell for someone and it didnt work out. Id go in to details but I dont think its right many reasons why it is. But the good stuff, ive pretty much figured out what i want to do. Im gonna just go ahead and go to college then im gonna while in college try and build up my cafe. After i have college and the cafe done then i'll go to the navy. Now hopefully by the time i go to the navy ill be like 25 or 26 still giving me sometime to go in the navy. Once im done with the navy i have to choose between swat or business mogal. They're both hard to choose because both are still very hard but im ready for this whatever comes comes.


I wanted to focus on something else at the moment. The War. I LIKE HOW THE "terroist" are saying they gonna clean out those how are not following the religon right, i find this funny because look at them doing what they call' a jihad, suicidal jihad in my eyes. In what religon does it say that suicidal jihad is exceptable? Someone tell me which one says that cause i know in Islam it doesnt say that!. I find it foul and disgusting but its nothing but typical for ssome one worse than the problem to try and fix it. So what side should i support?

From what i hear the elections havent been to good, neither side is doing too well. but what can you expect from animals speices human? We all felt this coming just didnt know it was gonna be this bad.

Henduo Henduo Ai
KEnji Yamamoto

p.s. ill be voting...

So long time is actually short

Konichiwa


I just saw how I hadnt written for a month just about. I actually had the next blog entry written out. Just you know day off to lazy to do it. Im all yawning right now. I was gonna do it on my phone but my connection had failed to get to here blogger. I will try to do it tomorro if not thursday then. Cause right now my head is all bleh and believe me things have happened since. *bleh* lol. Anyways Im gonna end this now and write one in either tomorrow or friday. Hopefully.

Kenji

Intelligence is only the item, the way you use it is the weapon

Konichiwa


Sen. Obama this morning picked his running mate today. He picked Delaware Sen. Biden. Some are saying this wasnt to good of an idea, i think i would have prefered him to have picked Hilary, but then again that probably isn't the best of ideas. We'll see what will happen, hopefully the best. There's not gonna be a sig on here today because im doing this from my cell. But anyways, McCain will pick his running mate tomorrow. I think i met the girl of my dreams, only time will tell. Other tha that the webpage planning is going well. Whats not going well is things i need to get done. Im taking too long...

Y.K. the Pink Apple

Life is a second chance...

Konichiwa

I met a girl, a cute one. Her name is Tenesha. >_> Connection like *snaps*. I'm a bit nervous I have to say, but I need to keep focus and stuff and not loose my head xD haha. I'm gonna get a better phone so that I may do blog post more often and when I start my website I'll be able to on more to make sure things are fine lol. Um in international news this morning they were discussing the events on Russia and gorgia...I have this feeling like they meant to do what they did, so they could take those two area for themselve or! There was some type of agreement between russia and the people of those two areas where they agreed upon disarming the troops there and what not. I don't know just seems to close because the people there don't wanna be there so then the russian decide to disarm? Hmmm. I 'm not too sure about all this. Other news, that i haven't been keeping up with is, both sen' are looking for Vice...PICK ME PICK ME XD. JP JP. Hope they pick good people is all. BETTER ._.
Ok time for my shower even thou I typed nothing lol.


Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Soul Has been blemished, spear on me God's Mercy.

Konichiwa

I hate when you tell someone..."Don't tell" and it..'SLIPS'. Doesn't that make you think, "well then how can I trust them if it just slips" and not only that but then they give an idc attitude when they say it just slipped basically telling you.. Yea it slipped but I don't really care, no sorry either. I guess yea I'm still a tad pissed but I actually don't care because that person no long has my trust. I hadn't had trust for a while wow and it was just blown off like pheh whatever. *sigh* I don't know what to do about ppl these days lol. Anyways. I'm getting the photos developed today, only two of the rolls the other one is not done yet. Gotta get it done soon. I'm gonna get them done i think 8 by 10 is it? I think that's the wrong size I chose. but I'll get it done and put them up for all to see. REMEMBER THIS IS MY FIRST TIME WITH THE CAM SO THEY'LL LOOK BAD XD. Ok i need to go eat and take my vitimens xD I got gummy kinds jp jp.


Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

What makes you weak makes you weaker?

Konichiwa

I went to new york the other day, and I took two and a half rolls of film of different places in new york. Thye're not gonna look nice, but it will help me with starting to imporve. I feel like my life is starting, finially. I'm gonna be doing things that interest me. Someone asked me to go to and orgy the other day, it actually pissed me off they had even asked...I'm old school, I mean I got a bad mouth but still I'm old school, plus I don't orgys seem nasty lol. I dunno, that's just not me. But anyways, I'm thinking about changing somethings abt my pink apple name. I'm not too sure about what I wanna make it. I gotta remember to get my film devolped, I mite do it tomorrow...However I have to get the rest of the film done then I can take it to get devolped. What else is new? Well lets see....UM.....I got to playing Halo again..bad idea lol. What else? I still need a harddrive and I want to get an IPHONE! >_>. Anything else? Nope pretty much not. I think I'll start off with redoing my room first before I go getting all that stuff first, plus I need money inorder to buy lol. I dunno what else to say now xD. O I'm still trying to find a webhosting home so I can do this website. For now it mite have to be... lycos unfortunatly. I liked doteasy. They had alot of freatures that I liked, but I don't have enough art to put up yet soooo eh can't start the site YET.

Well I'm gonna end this blog with a song that, for the first time ever, I said I want this song to be my funeral song...Which I don't even think people get to pick or even get that kinda stuff...




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

I forgot the title of this...this will just have to do.

Konichiwa

Yes I'm feeling much better thank you xD. I thought about alot fo things yesterday as i was getting depressed, one was "Dummy you want a girlfriend why you stressing?" xD, yea i called myself a dummy. Anyways another was something someone said when I asked for my heart back and was told I had it already, made me rememeber when they said that i could have it back...they didn't need it. Ouch baby very ouch. xD anyways I'm over it time to move on, if I can't be forgiven about doig something the wrong way then I guess that says something now doesn't it? Anyways. I got this antiques, I gotta sell them but I need to do some photos with them. But i got this funny feeling that the film I'm useing has already been used ._. . So it's gonna turn out ghostly (makes whooing sounds). xD. I need to go eat. Um hopefully I'll be able to hang out with a friend next week or so, we don't even know where we wanna go, and for that matter we don't even have money xD.


Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

A dream I had this morning....

Funny I rememeber this...I guess I did because of that the dream was, knowing it's not gonna come true.

I dreamt that I was forgiven and got back everything that was dearest to me.

You know what's weird? I'm crying.


(Dream Post...Y.K.)

Suicide is the cure.

Konichiwa

That's like the only title that is close to being what I'm abour to write lol. It's been 4 years since I felt that feeling that I wanted to commit suicide, I know it's not gonna solve anything but I really think it will help alot of things. See I got this bluff where I tend to act like I have such a nice high self estem but truth is, it's not as high as it seems. Bluffing for about 2 1/2 years actuaclly worked a little, I don't think as myself so bad, but all in all I still in some way do. My heart is in my mouth, feel like I'm gonna throw up lol. O well anyways. I really think I was a mistake but at that same time...God doesn't make mistakes soooooo, why am i HERE? All i do is mess things up, such as awesome friendships! I don't blame anyone that says they don't wanna see me again or whtever else becasue I'm sure I wouldn't wanna see me again... I mean look I'm selfish, rude, stupid, an asshole etc etc, now people try not to say I am, but I can tell thats what they think of me when they see or when I talk to them. I've been told a few times, and funny not by strangers, by people I care about alot, and that are extremely close to my hearts...But why should they be so close if that's what they think of me...I need like one of those silent guns, so I won't and nobody else would know I shot myself in the head or whereever else that would kill me. Bet your reading this and saying "She's just a pussy, or whimp."....Yep... I am.


Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Sir, I wish I could answer that, but I think I'll have to stay with being...silent.

Konichiwa

I haven't posted in like 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22.....that's....9 days xD. I don't know what to write lol. Uh first D doesn't (seem) to want to hear from me anymore, he told me bye and stuff like that after i said he wouldn't miss me as a best friend, I think i said somethign else too. Didn't make since to say good bye really because we go to the same bus stop, he made it ackward now. I don't know, I know i started it by something I said, but it could have talked out. My fault too i guess but i didn't say good bye i didn't want to...I can't let go i guess. I feel stupid....



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Commit sin to rid the sin

Konichiwa

It's been more than a week since I last posted anything, and I'm sure you're expecting to get a nice fluffy post.Well I guess you will in somewhat way. Um update on working I moved up. I'm still looking for a school to go to. I'm thinking barkleys, I'll have to see about the classes. I'm still learning to drive xD. Um Me and Deddy is bestfriends xD, yes i'm not completely over him but atleast I can admit that, but at the same time I'm ready to move on. I'm not interested very much in a relationship right now. If it comes it comes. I need to focus on me like I should have been doing. Um on other notes I need to still get the hard drive and camera lol. I'm getting my hair cut again. I'll be getting the nice super short cut. I'll be trying to get the Faux Hawk style xD. That' what I oringinally wanted, but didn't get now hopefully I can get it. I gotta see if my stylist is there wed, or i'm screwed for another week. I gotta go unfortunatly but there is alot believe it or not I have to update you all on xD Ok good night now I must sleepy!

Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Heart of the Dragon has been broken

Konichiwa

I just came out about my sexuality yesterday. I thought it was gonna be hard but it was ok, not so bad. My step-mother and I went to a cafe and we taked and I jsut ....went dork and said something and she understood xD lmao. I got all nervous lol. She was very open about it, she actually was a little aware of it -_-. Well atleast I got it off my chest, phew. I feel a little lighter, I just need to keep up that lightness and stay optimistc like I should've been. I got alot of things to do now. Start up for school and learn to drive. I can't wait. Hopefully I'll also will be getting a tat, dunno yet. I think it'll be on my shoulder with a biohazored in the middle lol. That'll be nice maybe I'll have my name in the middle in japanese or better yet I'll have it in korean. OMG THAT'S GONNA BE HOT! Lot of stuff to do and I'M READY (FEELS LIKE SPONGEBOB) XD. That website btw, it's on hold because I felt like I need more than just art on there I gotta bring something to the table ya know so, yea it's on hold for the minute until i fully figure out what i want on it. YAY xD


Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

I heard you but I'm not listening

Konichiwa

Today is the Gay Pride Parade, and I'm not gonna be able to see it this years. Hopefully next year, I'm like so disappointed, but that's my fault, if I knew how to drive already then I'd be able to go. I need to just get that out the way which I'm gonna do this month. I have alot to do this years and you know what? I'm up for it. Stuff I should have had done last year (meaning while i was 19) is now gonna get done, it's gotta get done before my 21st. Hopefully for me and my stepmother's birthday we'll go to vegas. I'll be paying for her and my ticket, so I need to do some major ticket pricing, to see what the ticket prices are like and what's the lowest I can get. I'm still thinking about getting my ears lopes strecthed to abt 1/4 inch, dunno when I'mma do it but hopefully soon. Whatelse I wanna get done? Ah I still need to talk to my parents and tell him I'm attracted to females xD. That's all I been looking at. Me and a friend were talking about that, and he was like i was most likely attracted to him because he had some feminine things about him. Jus thinking about that, I realized that probably was it because I'm not attracted to those masculine men, I mean yea they're hot but they're just eye candy. eh well I know now lol. Ok it's 9.40 am and I need to plan out things I need to get done this years before I turn 21, NO TIME TO WASTE I'VE WASTED ENOUGH!!!!




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Addictive Pain

Konichiwa

My myspace was deleted by tom the other day... I started up a new one, and I'm gonna send him a sweet little ol' letter asking him why he did it. There was no warning or anything, which is rather unfair, because mostly everyone I knew was on there. Now i gotta refind everyone and not all of them did I have their phone numbers. I swear sometimes... Anyways, I was watching King of Scotland last night, if I have the name right lol. But I saw how, Kings and Presidents when they come to you before they are that status, they're so noble and charming, then bing they're trayrants... King in my dictionary is a Man of noblity, honesty, love, care, witty, intellegent in all ways, and etc, same goes for a presidient. I do believe that's why we came up with those type of leaders, for such, not for them to turn into "GOD", God has that seat handled. Ofcourse this is just old conversation. On recent events, My hair is short and I'm broke lmao. Both are true lol. I dunno about myself anymore, I still have interest in going ot the navy, my friends and family don't like it...and well I dunno what to do abou thtat sometimes, it is my life but at the same time they do care and Idk...




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Death's Revenge is upon us.

Konichiwa

June 8 was my step-mom's birthday, it's awesome to have your birthday on a weekend lol. I was thinking about something just the other day while I was on the bus. I had a regretm the first and was at that moment the only regret. I'll tell you what it was first before I go on. Myre gret was that I didn't go see my guardian-mother before she passed away, I had the chance and didn't take it, mostly becuase I didn't believe she was gonna die. That was my only regret in loife however as I was sitting on the bus the other day thinking about something, a second possible regret came up. I'm not gonna say the regret becasue it may not turn out to be one if you catch my drift.But it's terrible when you have good friends and in the end you regret even knowing them. Some of those types are like "glads to get rid of"'s and or other are "heartbreakers". Anyways, on the better subject Obama and Clinton are teaming up? Dunno yet, maybe not, seems like clinton may not do it, however she is giving her voters to Obama and tellign them to vote for him. I think in my opinon that Clinton should do it, Obama needs a strong VP, someone that has his back and if he stumbles will be there to step in and correct. I dunno thou because ppl also see a down side to her being VP and that's her trying to take over....(sees clinton in a evil outfit tryign to take over the world.) ....>_> xD....I'll be voting for McCain thou......xD jp jp I'm voting for Obama. We'll see in time what happens just stay tuned on your local channels that boadcast the elections.


Well I'm 20 now and I don't feel a bit different lol. I cut my hair too lol. You can see the hair cut on myspace lol. A friend sees me at work and say I belong in the beatles lol xD.



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Last day of existance

Konichiwa

Yes yes, I didn't post again like I was suppose to. Now on days everytime I wanna go post I'm no where near a pc or either I can't get to it. As we mite know my birthday is tomorrow and I dicide to finally put change at work...(change as in transform myself lol). I keep saying I want to and it's about time I do. I was watching Gimme sugar on LOGO, and I saw the life that I wanted, and decide it's time and it's been time I actually did what I need to do, on my birthday change will be in affect, I've already began preparing lol. Being lazy is what slows me down so I'm trying to be less lazy, and step my game up. It's just once you get in the habit of one thing it's hard to get out of it. I don't know where to start but I'm gonna start somewhere. I know I'll start with no focusing on trying to find love, and just ...do me. xD o That sounded dirty lol jp jp. Ok I gotta go, I would say I'll post tonight but I actually mite not because I got my hair twisted into thousands of twist braids and now I gotta take them out so I can get my boy cut xD yay. However I will as always post again and remember VOTE FOR OBAMA!!!!!





Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Couple of Centries

Konichiwa


Yea never wrote that entry xD. I was gonna write it today but something told me just go post something, and here I am posting something which I have no idea what I'm posting lol. I have stuff I wanna post but I don't know what they are right now and I only have a few minutes so like everything is racing thru my mind xD. I'll just write it then post it. >_> O shoots I forgot to do something xD




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Good Morning Starshine, The Earth says HELLO!

Konichiwa

It's been 7 days since I posted anything lol. Like i don't even know what to write becausse nothign has been happening besides the usual. I haven't done the website either, I didn't cause I haven't planned the whole site out yet. I don't even know what I want to put on it. I am however trying to plan out the stuff I need to buy for my other project. Which is called "Yamamoto Strong". It's the same as the other one I wanted to start before I thought I was going to the navy. I have so much planning to do I'm confussed lol. Well I'm gonna write an entry while I'm at work and post it later. Alright I need to go eat, make my lunch and plan this stuff.




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

As the sunshine hides in the shadows...

Konichiwa


Love is like a trick or game. I tells you stuff like, "Yea you like him but you know can't...but aw heck go ahead, I'm sure it won't matter" aaaand ya listen, atleast I did. It tells different people different things. Sometimes it's good, sometimes bad. Anyways Yea I fell in love and well family is not so happy with it and I'll tell you why. His life has already been started, unlike mine, his has been made out and his has (grits teeth and blugdes eyes) children (xD i'm playing about the teeth and eye stuff), and so basically I'm like a little nat in a busy man's life....>_> I like how i put that. It bothers me to turn someone I fell in love with into a friend, I mean he's my bestfriend but I guess once I fell in love (this is so funny for somereason)I didn't just want plain ol' friends. However, point be made my life hasn't even started to bloom. Anyways lets change the subject! heh heh xD. -_- Let's get serious here and talk about ...... TRUST.....TEE ARE YOU ES TEE......TRUST.....
I'm gonna talk about everyone when it comes to this. I hate it when someone tell me or you or whomever.."O I trust you, I truely do"....and the next minute whomever it is, is questioning you, Basically saying "I don't trust and I never did". This is why no matter who (excuse my choice on words) the fuck you are I DON'T TRUST YOU. I've tried trusting people and they just let me down each time. AARGH NEXT SUBJECT THIS IS MAKING ME MAD.

I'm gonna major in librial arts. Ok like I'm suddenly pissed off. That got me steamed. >_> DERRICK YOU OWE ME MINUTES HIPPY! WHERE'S ME MONEY BOY I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS. O yea don't wanna forget to tell you all. A very important part of E.N.B, Maggi Drive G of 250 GB, has passed away. She has been preserved, she held alot of info, originals rare and unrare, um the first part of my portfolio and my three videos I made or was it four? Anyways it was a tearful funeral...It was friday she passed on thursday night.(CRIES). However we have another whose gonna take her place, his name's taylor, and uh he's a TB. Hopefully Taylor will be part of E.N.B not too sure yet xD. Anyways alot of things need to be bought. AY YA YAAA ~_~.



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Putting the World in a Coma

Konichiwa



I had a great night last night, could've been better had someone not been pissing me off. Now on days it seems that's all he's able to do. Anyways I went to rio's 22 last, uh absolutly wonderful. Had a martini and a the other thing in which I can't spell lol. San griau or something like that. They come around with different meats offering them to you. I picked mostly the chicken, nice and soft and tender. *drools*. Then we had desert. I had Pot de Creme, it was heavenly. *drools more*. Wow wow wow. I loved it. I got in last night and went straight to bed xD. Could've sleep after awhile, xD dunno why. But on other matters, I hate when someone you like or liked starts showing other colors of themselves and then it's like "I've wasted or was about to waste my time on you". I know this sounds stupid but I'm not the only one this has happened to, when you ask someone what they like about and they give the same answer as anybody else, and you just said there like, it pisses you off because then whatever that thing is that's the only thing people like you for. Basically you got nothing to offer. I also hate lead on's. Don't let me start on that. Anyway to drop that subject because I've been in a pissy mood on it. I before I end that subject hate when ppl say I don't wanna break your heart. LMAO. You or whomever could never break my heart because I purposely made it cold as so it wouldn't get broken, I just end up disappointed. Only person that could do that, is someone I was so in love with, to the point I want to have their babies, did that to me. Ok I need to change the subject xD. Have you seen the weather today? SIMPLE GASTLY xDDD. O yea don't kick my butt about the website alright? I just....haven't had time (is lying)....>_> >_< I SWEAR IT. XD. I'll get it done soon sheesh -_-. Preston is adorable xD and he won't leave me alone at work -_-;. xD don't worry I don't mind it thou lol. TIME TO EAT MUST LEAVE NOW WILL POST AGAIN *SPEAKS IN CAVEMAN LANGUAGE* O_o


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO THE MOTHERS READING MY BLOG (IF ANY LOL)

(And on other issues of current, Remember who makes your stuff, remember because they are part of our life even if we don't want them to be)




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Paranoiying Silence (From Diary To Blog)

Konichiwa

Two months ago is when I last wrote in my diary, recently I started this blog (In which I'm writing in). I revealed some good and some bad things. I told how I fell in love then some what, threw it away because there was no use of it. In speaking of love, someone I care for has a girlfriend, he told me about it.I got disappointed, hadn't expected but I think it kinda makes me mad. I guess becasue I don't see it from their view. I see the relationship as meaningless and pointless. Here's why. He says they don't even respond to eachother as a couple further more it's an open one...Ok am I the only what is sitting here saying "WHAT?" So why the hell is there even the relationship that basically is friends. Doesn't make sense and that's what makes me mad. That's what showed me "No..Sit" lol. I've leaerned to devolop a clod heart, not in the perspective of being evil and what not but in the perspective of not letting this hurt or get too me as much because really it's plainly stupid.Had I had thewarm tender heart, I'd be in tears and upset. I learn that life doesn't have time for crying over "Bullshit" such as that. "Wash your face and get on the road". Gotta be optimistic, normally I'd say "O well for him, next in line please" but this time I say "Good luck to ya" and I meaen that. I don't want someone that can't wait because "O this o that". Bullshit. You can't wait too damn bad, my theory is if I can wait you you better hell be able to wait for me and if not "Go somewhere out of my sun ray". I kno I most likely am goingin circles but I need to empty my head of something that doesn't even need to be there. Anyways on the more important matter. In Recent reports.......OUR EARTH IS DYING PEOPLE!!!! It seems to me as we evole things, matters, event worsen. Example, WW3, the current war going on now. USA VS QUOTE "IRAQI TERROIST". iS THE MOST REDICULOUS AND POINTLESS WAR. 6 years ago from my understanding the U.S was attacked. They intended on attempting to discover the quote "Terroist" who'd done it. However they as we all know had no idea who started this plan of attack, if infact it was Iraqi then white house was upsat that they were "Found with their pants down". Meaning guards down. Now I suppost the idea of revenging the family and innocent people and children that died, they didn't deserve that. However, how did this revenge turn from find the "terroist" to "we foudn the oil, librate iraq". I didn't hear that in the original plans....Iraq didn't ask for our libration, further more I doubt they even had a grudge with the U.S. You noticed that soon after the topic of revenge disappered so fast, not only that but the stupid parts are 1. we started on a country dit poor then pointed at someone else and 2. WE CAN'T EVEN HANDLE WITH THE PROBLEMS WE HAVE BTU WE ARE SOOOO READY TO LIBRATE OR HELP SOMEONE ELSE. Our economy is dying, people are loosing everything and we have to suppost a war that in the end will not even benefit us.. I's sad that the sons and daughters of hardwork good people in both lands have to fight a war that is completely pointless and I'm also upset as Iraqis for suicide bombing. WHERE IN THE QURAN DOES IT SAY YOU CAN COMMIT SUICIDE? I've not seen it. And when you commit suicide, common thing in every religon....WHAT HAPPENS???? YOU GO TO HELL NO MATTER THE REASON. This war is disgusting. At the same timewe going thru globel warming, this is the till we should be working together and not againist eachother to solve this problem. "Cavemen act more civilized". This just what I think, I can be wrong, I can be right, who knows. Watch one of you say I'm wrong lol. Anyways I will try as I said in my last post to start the website and start up a webcasting. I will try in due time.




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Tokyo's Sorrow and The Stone

Konichiwa

I haven't posted for a week so I had to do this quick post to asure everyone I'm still alive xD. Anyways I got back to rping, i did new pictures today lol. I'm thinking about doing a weekly webcasting. I dunno yet. I most likely will after i build my website. >_> Ok i gotta go cause it's late lol. Ok good night.



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

"I feel emotional distressed and morally suicidal"

Konichiwa

I think it's time I give up on love because it seems to only hurt in the end. Half of the time it's me, there's either something that doesn't stand to what I want or need, or it's something else, which I haven't figured out yet. I know one thing , I'm a very selfish person and tend to get jealous very easy. I need to learnmore to just let go of something I know I can't have. I know today I had already posted but I felt I should post again to get this off my chest. *Looks down at chest*. Sometimes I wonder about myself, you know? I mean like who I am, and what I want in life. I see so many things and seems to want them all. I need discipline. I was thinkign the other day about my child theory and I came to a conclusion, I'll have a child and adopt two...Just something I thought of. Everyone changes continuously, we can't really deny it, because we know it. Well that's how I came to that conclusion about the children. Now as I was saying in the beginning about love. I feel I shouldn't give on it actually, because the thing is I can't do that. Like no matter a person hates they'll love. So I'm gonna just put it to the side and set myself some morals. So how I figured I'd be writting again for a second time today? "I feel emotional distressed and morally suicidal" It's cold so what could I have expected of this day? My had are numb and my mind is silent. I guess it's finally letting me know how much I have only hurt myself in the end. But you know it takes alot to stand up to your own forced on pain. Take awhile to heal, I'll give you that, But you know what's a real bother? is being ignored...Frankly the phrase "go around come around" is brillant and dead on point. I lived on that phrase but I failed to watch my own self at what I did to others. Came back and now I feel like crying like a baby.I'm such a pussy at times. I can't stand up to my own teflon. It's a pity shame and it's like I just disgraced myself. It's depressing me. Now my hands are numb..Telling your life is art in it's own fashionable way. I'm going to relax now and try to forget but remember what I just wrote.



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Understand he didn't die for his country he died protecting his family.

Konichiwa

I'm sure that title goes for alot of people in the military. But anyways a news update! I almost put lotion in my eye this morning....>_> I don't know what was going on. First I was rubbing my eye then the next thing I got some lotion to put on my face and I realized I was aiming for my eye.....I think I was still and am still sleepy and not yet fully fully awakened.I bought mysims. It's not bad. I like alot and my character is so cute xD just like on maplestory xD. I gotta start paying that again. I gotta do alot of things in fact xD Like go eat breakfast >_> and someother stuff but all I can think of is eating breakfast xD. O I'm gonna try and build my website and then I'm gonna wait a while for it to get a little popular then! I'm gonna have on it LIVE WEBCASTING of me *points at self* where I'll talk about what's going on in my life and on the news and music and yadda ya and etc and....>_> and that it. it stops at etc xD. Ok now I need to go eat. I found out last night I didn't have book 15 of hanakumi so now i gotta go buy it and read it and add it to my collection it. >_> then I can read book 16 which I have. lol ok I will post again my good looking hot fan readers xD.



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

You just reached an ulitimate middle

Konichiwa


5 DAYS!!!! I HAVEN'T POSTED FOR 5 DAYS. shame shame shame xD. Nothing new has happened thou so explains why I haven't posted. I got a ihome just yesterday and bought the wire for my psp so I can play it on my tv. What else? Um I have to buy another one so I can play it on my tv in my room. I just cleaned my room up too xD omg what a mess. I can't believe I have work today. I so wanted to sleep today. but I need the money so eh. That reminds me TRU IS A RIP OFF.....end of that. need to get that off my chest. xD Speaking of chest xD jp jp. Ok i got nothing. time to eat. Another lame post lol




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Pink Apple aka Pink Delicious

(Konichiwa, this is a collab of things that was on my mind to today xD. Btw Lloyd the singer was at my checkpoint and so was kidcapree.)

Pink + White + Black
Rock your World
5 plus the million stack
You lost your lust for power
Where is the denile for sex
I had some pleasure
Devour it's delicious
Bestowed it's breast
...on my lips.
Deny me baby please....




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

And I devoured it's delicious.

Konichiwa


MY CORD SHOULD BE COMING TODAY I'M SO HAPPY YES I AM I'M SO HAPPY! xD I'm such a dork. But I had to say that first lol. Anyways nothing new, I did my stuff at work and all that good jazz. Wish I could tell you what it was but I can't because like it's rule that we can't tell. Don't Ask Don't Tell policy, yea my job got that too. xD I'm use to it thou. Once I go to the navy I'll, be ready for that xD and the neatness, friend of mine been getting me ready. Since he was fromt he marines you know he is able to give me some pointers I got actually another friend also form the marines, they both gave me pointers. >_> I smell like AXE body spray xD. I gotta attract the ladies today lol. I put my dad's spray on that I bought him. I also happen to have the deo lol, but I didn't put that on. My period this time around wasn't as bad, was a little lighter than my norm, which I like. xD. I've started back rping,which rping is normally my inspration to do my pictures for pink apple now aka pink delicious. xD I'm gonna make a perfum for this name. I got alot that I want to do for this name but dunno what to do xD Ok I need to go eat ppl. I gotta remember to buy vegas six when it comes out and remember to install call of duty 4 ...I'm hearing about a 5th....




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Red with Envy

Konichiwa

My period started and i feel pain THAT DOCTOR LIED >XD. I have to go take my med but um yeah I'm still sleepy T_T. I really don't feel like going out right now. CAN'T I JUST HAVE ONE DAY TO JUST SLEEP!.......I guess I can't since I didn't get a responce.xD just the sound of me typeing and my fan blowing. >_> My sides hurt too sheesh. Ok to the real news.....There's is none....e___e i feel like a dope for say that.I think I'm gonna go take my med now since there is no news. Will be some when I get back thou ^___________________^



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

I wait on her (my self) to return.

Konichiwa

Ah Ya. So much is happening but it feels like nothing is happening. I got a blood test and my arm is acting up now. I swear if that doctor missed up my arm she's gonna get it. I have to get my hair done this week end and order my cord ~_~. Gotta do that soon. Then I have to go to work thursday and friday. O so much to do sometimes. Whatelse? Yea things ain't working well with yes you know who lol. eh life don't work the way we want it. My bestie has a guy thou lol I think it's cute when she tells me lol. I have no idea why I find it cute. MY TOOTH IS KILLING ME t_________________t. xD I almost bought AXE spray for myself to wear. I was gonna try it. Janet Jackson has a new song out. It's nice, dunno the name of it thou. >_> I'm rambling now. I should just end this, it's getting pathetic





Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Once upon my time...

Konichiwa


Ok so there is nothing to talk about but it felt akward opening my blog and i hadn't posted anything since the six. Really weird I have nothing to talk about, when yet there is so much to talk about. Ok I'll talk about something....I went to the doctor today xD. Was ok I guess. I wasn't nervous. I gotta get to the dentist next thou. T_____T my teeth they hurt us. >_>. You know something I was just wondering. What is Love, and What is Hate?. What is the differance? I mean like sometimes if you notice, someone may say "I love that person so much" but fact of the matter is...they actually hate them. I mean alot of time we can tell or decipher the meaning, but sometimes I think we loose ourselves and don't know. Just somethign that poped on my mind ya know?. Ah Yes I got new picture of myself on my myspace U_U. I'll post the link so you don't have to travel to bangkok and back around the world lol. www.myspace.com/emopinkness.

I bought a White Strips CD and Marilyn Manson CD. They're both very awesome.xD ok time to go.



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

End had already arrived, this is a mere after affect.

Konichiwa


Nothing new. I think there's a problem thou. Like I thought I felt but I don't feel it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I really need to focus on myself, whch by some that seems to not be an option in some sort of way. Whtever thou. >_>. I really don't know what ot talk about. Let's see, I got noodles boiling, start TRU already, doctor's appointment coming up, period coming up, bid coming up, brother coming over, missed navy practice test because I had things to do, haven't started project P.A.A.T.C (Pink Apple's Alexander && Tokyo Code). I don't think I will. There was other stuff I hadn't started yet either. Maybe because I haven't gotten my cord YET!!!!!!. I'M STILL UPSET ABOUT THAT. O yea Coffee Prince is AWESOME. The channel however is going off air *cry*. Me is so sad. I love that drama just like I love my manga Hanakumi, >_> I need to check if my book is there. xD





Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Suicidal Reproduction.

Konichiwa

I had to change the Hi hi, I figured every month I should change it just like I change the pictures at the bottom. So yea that's what I'm gonna do. >XD I gotta study for the practice test in the navy. So far so good with the studying, I had to move my practice test date thou. When I went by I saw the marines, Marines are so cute xD. I don't know why I find them cute but they are. A bit funny too. Anyho ha's. T_______T I MISSED A EPISODE OF COFFEE PRINCE LAST WEEK AND GONNA MISS ANOTHER THIS WEEK. DISAPPOINTMENT. Today i have to go get my bus pass. I gotta check the bus times. Dunno what bus I might take to get to the penn station. Well my stomach hurts and this whole entry is random xD. I wanna gonna say something else... Forgotten...I guess that means close? xDDDD




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Have you figured out the Past to the future?

Hi Hi

I got this sick feeling in my stomach. I don't know what it is. I have work tonight and I have to ron my clothes. >_> It's 1103. I want to go back to sleep, but can't. Gonna miss my show tonight ~_~. Anyways I took a practice testy and scored 260 out of 1,000. LAME!. I gotta study up and then I go for another practice test. I wish i could like insert some knowledge in my head xD. Alot of people are trying to convince me to not go, and stuff like that. Or they tell me stuff I know I don't wanna do but at the same time it only makes me wanna go more lol. I just realized I'm gonna have to learn how to put a gun together ~_~. That is one thing I have to admit I don't want to do lol. But gonna have to learn how to thou. I gave my anime profile away lol. I have no time to play and edit anymore. I mean I'd love to but no time. I'll just keep it aas a hobby but I still need to find that camera. Alright let me go finish ironing the clothes. xD It's 1109



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

The day before tomorrow but the day after yesterday's yesterday.

Hi hi

I know I was suppose to write yesterday but I forgot ~_~. I need to stop that. Anyways I went to a recuit center for the navy and I have a phsyical test. xD My step mom doesn't know but my dad isn't as happy as before I guess he thought it was a moment and that it'dc fade away but when I told him....Dear me...xD. Anyways he wants to know what I get on the test. Yes yes I want to go to the navy. I need to for personal reasons and other reason. My dad is doing a great job but I feel I need more hardcore training, for both mental, phsyical, and attitude wise... and personality too. At the same time I get this traiing I can work and get schoooling money and get regular paying money aswell as get trained for the feild I wanna go in. Once I finish my 4 years...I can transfere those creidts to a college and finish whats needed and done. It's not an easy way out but It's getting me where I need to start going. I know i'm against war...but I need to do this. I've always for some reason also wanted to join the navy anyways. I can't really tell you why, I guess maybe that reason my mother wanted to but didn't. I been working out, today I don't hurt, yesterday o dear God lol. I gotta go it's time for me to get in the shower I'm all sweaty. xD

I'll post Graduation pictures if I do make it in to boot camp and pass xD



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Both In and Out we have war....

Hi Hi



One word...NAVY...i'll write tomorro and explain.




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

He killed a thousand men with one word.

Hi Hi

Ok that hi hi stuff is starting to get a little lame xD. I was watching an awesome drama last night (faints), it's called Coffe Prince. Coffe Prince is a little like Hanakumi, only doesn't take place in a high school lol. Today I believe I'm gonna be almost late for work xD. I'm on my lady stuff ~_~ I don't feel like going to work, WHY WON'T MY PHONE STOP VIBRATING!!!!!!. -__- stupid phone. Ok Now like i was saying...my stomuch hurts T_______T, need food and medical items. xD




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Backwards is Forwards While Forwards is Insanity

Hi Hi


Today I thought I wasn't gonna beable to make it to work but then remember my titles and said wow. If I called out I'd get what's called AWALLED ... Awalled is maked absent without leave. That's the gov't for you. O well atleast I feel ok. Just wait till i get to work lol. I don't feel like goin but I need the money, i need to save more for school and stuff. I also need to finish learning to drive (sigh). I'm actually a little excited this time. I feel better about it. Anyways, I know i haven't writen for 3 days and this is a short entry but I need to go eat before I am in pain. BTW DID YOU SEE THE SPEECH OBAMA GAVE? I'll post it for you.





State your opinion on the speech.




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

This Is Our Second and Last Chance

Hi Hi


Again I do an entry late, I need to stop. I've decided to step up my game. I need to do more important things for myself asap, Aswell as get back to the active creative side of me. My laptop can't read cd's anymore, I'm not sure what's wrong with it.I need a note book badly, so I can start planning out my website and other things I need to do. But where on the way to work will I find a notebook...O yea lol I forgot the store right acroos the street. I'll just have to leave a bit early to go there or rite aid. I prefer Rite-aid, but that's off so I'm just gonna have to do with the on acroos the street from where I walk to the bus. I also just came to thought I need to fix a&tc edits up. Alot todo. Then I need to finish the stor for The Geminis so I can maybe get it edited, published and hopefully maybe have someone do the anime drawings for it. I can't reall do that kinda of thing. I can't do manga type drawings, just still one shot lol. Hopeully I find someone. After that I need to find my dad's camera and etc etc. So much to do so little time and money.





Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Our country Eats men...

Hi Hi

Wow, last post was on the 9th lol. Well i'm about to go play nfs. Today I got a flower (embaressed). It was nice of him but wasn't nessessary lol. OMG THE MOVIE HULK IS COMING OUT SOON. >_> I wanna see that one. Have I ever said how i wanted a dragon tatoo on my back. Like a monster dragon with thos japanese fish going around it, and some cherry blossoms. I want my japanese name written next to it then the claw on my shoulder, but I want like the eyes all blackened to symboylize darkness and lost of path. OMG I CAN'T WAIT TO GET IT. it's gonna be sick >XD ok time for me to go play my game.

Enjoy Travis Barker Playing to Flo Rider






Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

If you can't handle my sunshine then get out of the sunlight

Hi Hi


Hmm....Dunno what ot write as I only have 6 minutes to write. Depression?....I'll continue this later, I need to go.


Hi Hi

I know it looks a bit weird that it says hi hi twice but I did say I was gonna continue this one, even thou I'm cheating and today is the 10th lol. I don't know what to talk about really. Nothing has really happened.I decide to try and build my own pc thou. A MEGA SUPER AWESOME POWERFUL COMPUTERZOID xD. I'm stupid some time lol. I gotta do the research for the parts I want thou. Then I gotta find that camera of my fathers and learn how to use it. Then I got other stuff I gotta learn how to use. So much to do so little time. Gonna have to start planning asap.

Time to feed dog >XD yes




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Her speed was so slow, I had to ask for forgiveness

Hi hi...


I don't know where to start or how to start. Thought this would be a good blog, but I realized I rush to much. Patients is blist but painful. I don't want to be patient, however i need to learn how to be like i use to be. -sigh-. whatelse should I say? Right anyways, so i'm so suppose to be going on a date but I've only known him for now..2 weeks...And my step mom pointed out we only known eachother for a short time, we should get to know eachother more. Point is fully taken thou...Can only keep it at that. TT_____TT. Sound good thou, just not too fun. We'll see what happens. In all good time, right? RIGHT! YOSH! oK i HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO SAY....he's listening *looks around like a spy* >_> <------------------weirdo!



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

This is a Story so follow along with me.

Hi Hi

I bet it's stupid that I say hi hi at the beginning of every entry I do and I bet it's stupid I put up titles that have nothign to do with the entry however, each title is a quote of mine. It's to make you think, it's to make you smile, it's to piss you off, it's there because I thought of it. Some don't make since some do. Today's titles thou has something to do with my whole journal thou, this is a story of my life and you know you gotta follow along with me. You don't know me but you are learning as am I. I still like religon wise don't know who I am, and many other ways I don't know who I am lol. But that's ok I'm learning lol. Anyways...."SHAWTY IS A 10" I had to say that, Derrick (The third ) is still on my mind right now. Even thou I KNOW we're only SUPPOSE to be friends -_-....HE STARTED IT....TT_____TT Why am I so weak to getting biten on the neck....wish I could tell you the whole story but can't I must go shower xD. YAY I got myself out of that one lol. Ok bye >_>




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Tears of A Mistress

Hi Hi


Ok, I have really nothing to talk about except I met this cute guy who is UNAVAIBLE!!!. Why is every guy I happen to like somehow unavaible to my access lol (had to use the word access, sounds better). Then all the ugly guys are open -_-. Ugh just not cool you know. The first one is to odl for me, the next one I don't even know what's wrong, then one after that is working things in his life out....-______- Atleast I can remain friends with them. Lol then I can tease how all my friends are hot stuff lol >XD I like that, if I can't have them one way, I'm gonna have'em another lol. Anyways...My ponytail i got put in is falling >_< and it's getting ichy. My mom texted me last night when I fell asleep, lol she left a message calling me like my baby sister calls me lol. I love my mom lol. Ok I need food and I have nothing else to really talk about lol. >_> O the third....I don't know if you all are getting these names so I'll explain them



The first (Who's-name-not-to-be-mentioned)
The second (The one I ride the bus with from and to work)
The third (The one I just recently met that's unavaible)


Ok anyways, the the thrid is sweet ^___^, <_< I was texting him from the time I left work to when I went to bed ._. . I bet you for a fact I'm gonna be low on minutes because I have prepaid at the moment, i haven't upgraded yet, so I can garantee I am a little low lol. o YEA and the third is cute. Dunno if I said that already lol Ok time for me to go eat lol.



Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Tetafaye

Hi Hi


It makes no sence to me to be posting but for some guilty reason I am. I found out who's-name-not-to-be-mentioned age.....-_- he's too old for me. Well I mean had it been me on my own I wouldn't care because I like him for him, not his age but point be taken he IS too old for me at the point now and today. Sooooooo we can only be friends -_-. Anyways I know where I want to have my birthday party I don't know if I have said that already xD. I'll say it again DIVA'S unless I see another place better, I've got time, If God Wills me to have times. You something I never take about my religon or what religon I am, and one day I will with a special editon post. Special editon post sound nice so I called it that. lol. Anyways I really don't know what to talk about so I'm gonna go eat lol



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Can in a Corn

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I have began to notice my post, almost a every 3 days pattern. I realize I can't write everyday it's boring lol. Anyways I need to update you. On Wednsday night I went to diva's, it was nice, I had two drinks...Still don't know wha my second drink was but it was good lol. I believe the first one was gin and coke, I BELIEVE. I got to dance and stuff, but I'm still mad at myself I didn't get to take a picture of who's-name-will-not-be-mentioned. YES YES, I have realized I still like him -__-, not like i stop or anything, think my mind was like...get a grip woman lol. Anyways I got my hair done AND...(DRUM ROLL) I don't like it. I hate in fact and yes hate is a strong word but I can't stand the style it's in. The bump is way to big, I get fusterated just looking at it lol. Back to what happened at diva's ... I GOT TO LAY MY BIG HEAD ON HIS SHOULDER AND HE LAID HIS HEAD ON MY BIG HEAD (GETS EXCITED). Yes I'm more dork than you think I am xD lol.Atleast I had that moment (swoons). I wanted to dance but with me If i start dancing you just gotta jump in, i can't start just get up on you and dance...I get all shy and stuff. -__- I need some help with this shy stuff. I COULD HAVE TALKED TO HIM AND EVERYTHING. I cant stand myself right now. DISAPPOINTMENT. My step-mom was laughing when I told her lol.I laugh at the thought of it too lol It is pretty dorky. Have you heard about the race with the to-be presidents. The amount of money these people are spending in ads is ridiculous. Really if you wanted to show you can do it, put it towards something else because anyone anywhere can make an ad, promise or say would you rather yadda ya. It's the same consept (excuse my spelling) as cell phone ads, cable ads, so on so forth, they promise you this, and you get that. Now the prisident we have now I'm sure did the same type of ad... and what did we get. Can we really trust what they say they are going to do, because it seems to me like everytime they say they can this they can that they never this or that they loose their heads.We all know well at the beginning they mean well they want to help, but we also know once they get up there, most or the decision are not theirs to make, they must be agreed on. My point is, from what I noticed when I watch CNN, is that they make these promises that not them , us or anyone is sure that can keep or go by. Don't make promises you can't keeps. I'm not into politics much but this is just things I've come to notice. Anyways I probably wrong lol, if I am please correct me, because at this time today and now, I couldn't tell you who'd I'd vote for, .... might just vote for myself lol.
Time to give this an end lol Gotta go eat breakfast. Ciao


((War. It is ugly while it is beautiful, A beast who is...disgustingly cruel, take lives amoung lives. Steal the fruit of the mother and bareing it's crime on the city much like a pleage. While then it's beauty, how it is done. Frogive but I maybe against war, however I still see it's beauty. How it is conducted, how it can be graceful and swift at times or others it can be...memorble. We come to look only as what it does not how it does it. The disgusted is what, the beauty is how. Should we come to still hate it, and come to just dislike it. I'd tell you I still hate it, it's charmingg beauty doesn't give way to the chaos, darkness and glit it lays upon.))(excuse spelling).




Henduo Henduo Ai
Yamamoto Kenji

Vandali

Hi Hi


I went to the diva's last night...Was nice. I would go into more detail but I need to go sleep because it's major late. So I'm only starting it off so you know what you go good coming lol.






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The Lie became the Truth and the Truth a Vading History

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And why didn't I write in the last however many ddays I have not writen in? I don't know, I just know I had some depression and mood swings going on, I don't still know why. I do know I feel better. I have a feeling problem though...like a have feelings for someone feeling problem lol. I bet that made no sence lol. O dear. xD. I decided I'd find my pictures for editing out of books. Makes it more orignal than just finding the same ones ppl use to edit online. It's gonna be a project I can tell you that lol. But oddly I can't wait to actually get it done. Like I don't even wanna go to the salon to get ym hair done, I actually wanna stay home and get the project done.It's makeing me sick! I have to even do the profile over. I'm gonna make the old alexander profile their back up pro. I have to find a lay out. I don't think it's gonna be the same one they have currently. I'm not sure yet. But you wait till its' done, it's gonna be a big bang like OMG! lol.






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So I guess Your the Doctor for Relationships?...

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I think I'm gonna go back to trying to write my stories, and things like that. There is so much I wanna get back to doing and I think finally I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna add on some other things too, but I'm not sure yet. I just found myself just like, sitting there saying to myself "Hobbies make you out" and I do believe it's true. I can't stop sneezeing, something around me is really dusty. Anyways, I have to start from scracth with my pictures, I can't be held back because I don't have a cord. I had alot of pictures on there and it took me two years, I think that made me a alittle depressed, but you know I just keep going while I wait for my hard drive cord. I need to search for some new pictures, or ask people for some. I think I'll do that tonight, instead of going up stairs as normal and staring at the tv lol. Then I gotta find my father old photography camera, instead of buying one I could restore that one and use it. Buy some film yadda ya. Yep. Then I think when I get my cord, I'll go to one of the graphic stores and have then print out one of my pictures maybe. I think the mugen one I'll have then print. That one is nice. Alright I have to go eat breakfast and go catch my bus, I'll be writing again tonight ...Hopefully.




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Yamamoto Kenji

*Gasps* I'm gorgeous....

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My chin itches and my eye hurts....and my back hurt and itches too xD. I really for some reason would like to have a bf/gf. I don't know why, just would like to have one. I think I look to hard as I maybe have said before, and I don't enjoy being single. I'm really bored right now, I thought I was going to go look for music but I changed my mind and I'm gonna go watch tv and takes some meds, periods on its way, most likely tomorrow. Dunno. Well I washed my hair today, felt so good lol. I am still sad about my harddrive. I foudn the price but its' out of stock T______________T I want to cry. Alright let me go lay down, cause nothing really happened today really. I need to start trying to get frames for my pictures, and trying to get them printed out.Dunno what I'm gonna do.



I intend to do something simular to this, not meaning the picture but like Dolce and Gabana, I intend to do something simular, only thing is, it won't be a fashion design I'll beign just doing editing and they will be my portfolio models lol, I will explain more when I finish the pictures




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I CAN'T BREATHE...DON'T HELP ME I CAN'T BREATHE....

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Ok I have to do a one liner right now, cause for some reason i can't breathe right to well. So um nothign happened today, it was slow. um um yes he so cute!!! -_- I say that about every cute guy i see lol. Ok now my back hurts too. I'm still mad my cord is broken, but guess what! I found what camera I think I want lol. I can't wait to just choose one so i can save money for it and then i have to get my cell first, that is gonna be verizon. >_> O snap I have to go vote for danny. U_U His pants were a little (ahem) bluging today xD what happened danny? OK I GOTTA GO VOTE AND THEN SLEEP.

((Funny He knows you better than you know you, you better take yourself out to dinner and get to know yourself.))



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